I want you to know that you do not need permission to be a mess. But I am going to give it to you. Be a mess. Fall apart. Let yourself feel vulnerable. It may be hard, but do it anyways.
I know it is hard to let go. To admit that you do not have it all together. To look your life head on and feel afraid and alone. I know that you question yourself. I know you question everything. I know that you are tired from trying to wrap yourself around everything. I know that you wonder if you are enough.
You are enough. And I know that because I am enough too.
I give you permission to let your emotions get the best of you from time to time. To fall apart when the lack of control makes you feel weak. To mess up. To say and do the wrong things sometimes. To stop being everything for everyone. To start being only what you need. Not all of the time, but enough of the time to help you heal the pieces inside of you that feel broken and lost.
I see you. I know your pain and your anger and your fear. I know you hate the journey, and not the life. I know you feel guilty sometimes. I know that you would choose differently if the choice was yours. I know how it makes you feel to think that. To feel that.
I know you feel like you need to suck it up. To be braver than you know how to be. To look forward with hope and wonder. To stand against the fear and the pain weighing you down.
Do not suck it up. Do not push your feelings aside. Do not try to outrun them. Because you cannot. And you never will.
Feel everything. Feel it in all of the places inside of you. Feel the joy and the wonder. But feel the pain and the fear too. Let yourself live inside of all of the emotions. They are an important part of this journey. And an important part of you.
Because you are brave. You are walking a journey that many could not walk. You are doing it every day. And you rarely complain. Not really. Not the way you want to. You are brave and strong and you are nailing it. Even when you do not know that you are.
You are enough. Today. Tomorrow. And in all the days are ahead.
Breath. Love yourself. And remember that you do not need permission to fall apart. Fall. Fall fast and often. If you do not fall, then you cannot rise. And I think we learn the most about ourselves from the way that we rise.
Sometimes I am sad. I feel anger and fear. Sometimes I am lonely. Numb and hopeless. Sometimes I fall.
And after the fall, when I am all done feeling the things I needed to feel, I rise. I look forward, but not too far. I breath. I love myself. And I go. Another day on this journey that has no end.